ACT OF DESPAIR

I wish i could write
write of all that my heart fights
of all that my heart aches
hurts
i cut myself today
just to feel
as its the only pain i assumed real
real to what she made me feel

At the mid of one fateful memorable night
she left
as i wondered what begot of my plight
in a momentary darkness
slowly coming into oblivion
when she rendered void our union
and sneaked into the hordes of suppression

And as dawn unveiled my eyes
to the labyrinth of self reconciliation
i revelled in sadness
and in that twilight
a bird sang its melodies
to break the darkness silence
as my eyes gazed
and my thoughts fazed
i still revelled in sadness
from the stronghold of my heart
i scanned the annals of toil and tolerance
and thought of the trampled histiry
and then it hit me
what if i stage a fight?
and erase the option of to quit

yes!
i must tell her
or so i thought
tht her`s is a suicidal idea
that our love should stretch another calendar year
so i should face my fear
and weigh my strength against tomorrow
do away with the sorrow
for life always offers a second chance
for anyone to choose the stance
that chance being `tomorrow'
but then again
its immense pain
with much to gain
and much to loose
the hardest part of holding on is letting go
and
sometimes goodbye is a second chance.


<am getting rusty,i should update more often,not my favourite but....enjoy>