We don’t talk about
the day I told her I love her
We chose to forget it
and continue living in denial
We don’t talk about
the day she said, “I like you Allan, I might date you for a little while, then
maybe not after that’’
We just let Adele
write about us, song after song
We don’t even meet
anymore
We just bump into each
other, give smiles hovered with wishes and carry on with our lives
As if we know where
we’re headed
We’re like strangers
who’ve known the other for eternity
Fantasies warped my
expectations and I forgot how it’s like not to love
How it’s like not to
love what you only have
Shadows from her past
tightened their grip on her every time she thought of love
I saw her fall, dust
herself up and tread on to be searched
I’ve seen her wipe old
smiles and wear new faces
I’ve seen her enjoy
being miserable alone, I’ve stretched out my hands and touched her soul with my
fingertips
We’ve gone over her
memories when dawn seemed far, and silently wished we’d make ours at every welcoming
of dusk
I’ve seen her collect
her memories and squeeze them into one single tear
She never loved her
chest, she said it was too small but that didn’t matter to me as I was closer
to her heart
She wanted someone to
grow old with, but no, that’s too much responsibility to me, I mean, why not
remain young forever together? Or spend time trying out different personas in
our love stories
Sometimes it’s losing
what you never had
Sometimes it’s saying
no to something you haven’t found
Sometimes it’s never
thinking about some-times you spend alone
Sometimes it’s wishing
that you meet several decades later, when you’ve both learned to love the hurt
away
Sometimes, this
sometimes changes into every-time and there’s no escape
To give chances, to acknowledge
that even the most broken of men walk amongst us
That even men with
flaws expect kindness and love in return
That not every prince
is charming
We don’t even text
each other, I mean, why should we?
We never moved on, we
just got accustomed to the pain
Everything beautiful
reminds us of each other, and then our minds leave our bodies
We were halfway in
We see each other in
every verse in a poem, every chapter in a book, in every character of some reel
we’re watching
Ours is an untold
story, lacking nothing but life, as a part of me dies upon the mention of her
name
I even bought a new
perfume to replace the scent of fresh fruits in a rainy season that always
followed her soul
We’ve learnt to sing
alone in the dark, and replace tears with new tears
We believe that moving
on will happen when we learn not to love again
We even changed our
diets, who wants to remember of a recipe that has memories for flavors?
We didn’t even leave
each other escape routes to find each other; we just slept, and woke up to empty
beds next to each other
We just took each other’s
heart and left
We don’t even think it
hurts that we miss each other while we’re just mere dreams
At every break of
dawn, I thank her for loving me, because I then know what true love is, and she
wasn’t it.
lovely
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